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“I was critiquing my words and I am losing my religion” | notes from my laptop
Date: June 23, 2024 So yeah I understand how monks and shit will be celibate because they don’t want their bodies “tainted” with other people’s energy. I certainly don’t want my body to be “tainted” either. That’s not the right wording for what I feel it is, but that’s the wording I’ve got currently. It…
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when your body reminds you of the score: a notes app history in three acts
act one: the paper cut Date: 11/22/2024, 10:39 PM Trauma violently reshapes who you are without giving you a manual explaining how you’ve changed. You need to relearn who you are through vicious trial and error. And just when you think you’ve finished writing out your own manual by hand, wrist ligaments cracking and knuckles…
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new Pop-Pop POV just dropped: a sister responds
After reading “understanding my patriarchs: part one, probably“, my younger sister was inspired to write about her own understanding of our grandfather. She asked if I could post it here, and I was honored and thrilled at the implications of having the first guest post on this site be such an insightful piece as hers.…
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understanding my patriarchs: part one, probably
It’s hard for me to be candid about my extended family members. Overall, I’ve been undeniably lucky, and I’m grateful for what went well during my development. But I must also address what did not go well, and why it’s relevant to The State Of Things today. My father’s parents are well-meaning and generally pleasant,…
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regarding the state of things: a half-essay, half-rant
When I write, I usually choose my words wisely and carefully, curating each syllable to best represent my intentions. I’m grateful that such a skill was instilled in my upbringing. It’s time-consuming to write like that, though, and unfortunately, we live in a time of urgency. Also, perhaps unfortunately, honesty can be unpleasant and un-careful.…
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what I learned in Scene Study #2: throat clearing
SESSION 2 Chekhov plays require brilliant actors No villains, no heroes, no lessons “My job is to show humanity in clinical detail” No such thing as too much research “The author’s intent matters not” VERY dangerous to make judgments about your character; it shuts off exploration – instead, try to understand them In comedy, look…
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“All men are pigs.” | notes from my laptop
“All men are pigs.” This offhanded comment could not go unremarked by me. Not only is it untrue, but it’s hurtful. It reveals a greater psycho-sociological problem that disproportionately affects vulnerable white women. Those like my friend, who end up saying these things and breathing them into existence. For someone who claims to be witchy,…
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The Vagina Monologues: my directing class final project
In 2023, I took a directing class in which the final project was to create a production plan for any contemporary play. I chose to tackle Eve Ensler’s The Vagina Monologues. I’m posting it here so that anyone can use this concept in their own directorial journey, in case I never get to do it…
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notes app entry: Feb. 12, 2023
I don’t understand longing. Like I get that it is an emotion, but I don’t think I’m capable of feeling it. Maybe that’s the lack of meds talking, but I just feel so fucking numb to deeper human emotions. It makes me question my humanity. Like, is romance really vital to being human? Obviously it…
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