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  • the heart’s response to “it is that deep”

    “Parents fight — my gut reacts. Fascists get elected — my gut reacts. The magnitude rarely differs. The severity is usually paramount. […] That is why I feel bewildered when onlookers of my high-strung dismay dare to tell me It’s Not That Deep. How can nothing affect you so viscerally? How can you watch your…

  • my gut reaction to “it’s not that deep”

    I have this sense for when something really bad or otherwise monumental is happening, or about to happen. I can feel the cortisol shoot through my gut. My hands yearn to claw dirt, my feet clench. It’s that bungee plunge that never returns. It’s always powerful, never preventable. It paralyzes me — and often, I…